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Sunday, August 27, 2006


I’m going to talk about menopause, so all you men out there can go: “Eeeeuw!” and run away, or maybe you can stay and learn a thing or two about what your wife or partner is experiencing, or may experience.

Prior to menopause I can’t say I was a perfect, happy-go-lucky person, but I was tough, resilient, enjoyed life, had no qualms about trying new things, could eat, drink, dance until the wee hours, was a good mother and managed my home and family well. I exercised daily, and laughed a lot.

Then peri-menopause hit…well, it didn’t really ‘hit’ as much as it ‘snuck up’… I began to notice I was feeling lethargic – apathetic. Nothing really excited me, and I found myself totally unenthusiastic. I went to a doctor who decided I must be agoraphobic and gave me antidepressants. One pill later and I was a total basket case. I had my first panic attack. It was that pill that sent my ‘apathy’ over the edge.

Who says panic attacks only affect mentally disturbed people? This first panic attack, since I had no idea what it was, sent me into a tail spin – foetal position in bed for nearly two weeks. I was lucky to have a friend who was also a counsellor for women. We began having sessions and she suggested I read a book called: “Complete Self Help For your Nerves” by Dr. Claire Weekes. That book saved my life then, and continues to do so during this unbelievably difficult transition.

Peri menopause and menopause can create such a that. It’s like a horrible tunnel of terrors. You burn with hot flashes, then you shiver with cold flashes. You can be in the middle of baking a cake and suddenly a wave of panic will flood you and you’ll descend into a fiery pit of fear. You have no idea what you’re afraid of, but your adrenals are telling you to run or to be very afraid. Along with this, you’ll have muscle spasms – tension that comes like a squeezing fist, making it feel as though your neck, shoulders, jaws, head and face are being stretched beyond endurance. Your ears begin to ring. This is frightening in itself, since you automatically assume you’re going deaf. Some days you’ll have heart palpitations (erratic heart rhythms) that lead to anxiety over heart problems. Some days you’ll have headaches – and some headaches last for weeks or longer. Exaggerated fears are rife. You will wake up mornings thinking you’ve got a brain tumor – or a heart condition. When you’re at your worst, you may believe you’re truly losing it – and end up at the ER. Inevitably you’ll be sent home with nothing truly resolved, other than reassurance you’re not physically dying.

In between all this, when the anxiety, tension and/or temperature fluctuations have decided to take a few days off, you may descend into depression. Again, for no apparent reason. Depression is like a dark pit where you’re looking out at the world, instead of actually being part of the world. You feel isolated and alone…and very, very confused. Doctors will want to put you on anti-depressants, but, if you’re like me and they make things worse, you persevere by finding support. You’ll read lots of books on menopause. You’ll refuse to listen to so-called medical experts who tell you menopause doesn’t cause mood fluctuations or all the symptoms you’re having. Proof of this is a visit to the Power Surge website ( Literally thousands of women post on the message boards there and describe an enormous variety of like-symptoms as they journey through this tunnel of terrors – and they receive many messages of support from others who truly understand.

If any of you are wondering if your symptoms might be due to menopause, here is a list of the 34 signs of menopause: Keep in mind that many menopausal women will not experience all of these symptoms, but many will experience most of these and more. I developed Burning Mouth Syndrome and it took me some months of anguish to find a specialist in Melbourne who knew what it was and knew how to treat it.

I would like to add that am disgusted and appalled at the medical profession in general for being so blasé about the suffering of so many women. I feel it’s a sign that they just don’t know what to do, so they ignore it. Some say if it’s not life-threatening, then it’s not worth researching. I believe that the significant removal of at least ten years of a woman’s life is more than worthy of research and assistance. One of the most helpful things for a menopausal woman is validation – knowing that what she is experiencing is real and not ‘something in her head.’

I want to end this blog with encouragement for those who are suffering with menopause or peri menopause as I am. I want you to know that this DOES end. That one day you’ll feel better and you’ll see the glimmer of light at the end of the tunnel. Ask a woman in her 70s and she will probably not even remember her menopausal symptoms.

Here are some books I’ve found helpful during my menopausal journey:
1. Complete Self-Help for your Nerves by Dr. Claire Weekes
2. The Seven Sacred Rites of Menopause by Kristi Meisenbach Boylan
3. You Can Heal Your Life by Louise L. Hay
4. The Power of Now by Eckhart Tolle
5. From Panic To Power by Lucinda Bassett

I’m sure there are many more some of you could include. Please add comments to this post if you’ve had difficult menopausal symptoms and have found relief. Or if you just want some support. And be sure to visit Power Surge – I guarantee it will help you feel less alone.


At 10:39 AM, August 28, 2006, Blogger Chris said...

I can identify with the panic attacks, Maureen, although mine were very mild compared to what you describe. I took kali-phos which is a homeopathic remedy and it really helped. I also suffered wicked hot flashes. It felt like I had a blow torch located in the region of my waist and every so often whoosh... I still have mild hot flashes when the weather is very humid, or when it's unpredictable like going from fall into winter or spring into summer.
Unfortunately, there is no easy answer to the trials of menopause--what works for one, doesn't work for another, and everyone's symptoms are different. Somehow though, we women manage to get through it and still do everything else we're supposed to do as well.


At 4:13 PM, August 28, 2006, Blogger Kim Cox said...

I can also identify. I'm now 50, but I've been experiencing hot flashes off and on for about 4 years, but they are pretty mild. Usually when I first wake up in the morning. When this happens, there's no htting the snooze, turning over and going back to sleep as I usually do. I have to get up.

My doctor (a female) told me last year that I was too young for menopause symptoms. I've been having the irregular heatbeat too, however this runs in my family. My father had it. He thought his heart was skipping a beat when it actually had an extra beat. This worried me because a heart attack is what killed him. So I didn't know this was also a symptom of menopause.

On the too young part. I'm 50 now and was 49 then. I know of two women who have already stopped having a menstrual cycle, one is about 3 years younger than me and the other only a year older than me. And theirs stopped years ago.

I used to only have the speedier pulse and heart rate when I laid down to go to sleep at night, but now I have it at various times. The doctor did give me something years ago for this and it worked pretty good. She said I could get it over the counter and I could, but in a lower dosage. But I had an allergic reaction to the lower dosage. Go figure. The other didn't bother me.

Oh and I've had the buzzing and ringing in my ears. But all ear exams have been fine. My grandfather went deaf when he was older, so I wasn't sure about that either. Though I remember my mother in law complaining about this.

It's good to know this doesn't last forever.


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